Feeling a little down

Hi love funny we spoke today as you know don't feel alone I'm at that place also so over it xxx I think that's what happens we are all. here to pick each other up xxx much love 

Hi Anita

Sorry to hear you're feeling down. It's not unusual to be feeling how you are when you hit the middle of chemo. Your body and mind is screaming for you to stop but you know you need to keep pushing forward. Add to that a spouse who doesn't get it (my family didn't get it either) and it makes for a dreadful time. I remember crying to my onc nurse and saying I couldn't do it anymore. She gave me excellent advice. Stuff everyone else. At this stage you need to put yourself first. Everyone else can fend for themselves. Rest when you need to, try to get a little gentle exercise in (even if it is just a walk around the block) and do what ever it is you need to to get through. Call in favours and if your family won't step up, time to ask friends for help. If you have days where you feel ok within the cycle, plan something nice. Even if it is just going to a coffee shop with a friend. This is the time that it needs to be all about you! Radio is a lot easier than chemo. You will get through this! Tell you onc staff how you are feeling. It's important that they know. Hang in there and take care. Karen xox

Hey lovely friend, you're allowed to have bad days, and we all have them. You've been so positive and so strong, your family must be so proud of you. Here's hoping that you have a lovely festive season with your family. It is like a roller coaster ride, with all its ups and downs. Just stay in the carriage, hang on tight, and you'll get there. Sending you a big cuddle, Trace ????????

Hey Anita 

Havent heard from you for a while was wondering how you were doing. Hang in there my dear i know its tough but it will all be over before you know it. Think of that beautiful daughter of yours as i know she will be your motivation to keep going. Stay in touch with us we will get you through it.

Big hugs and positive vibes to you.????

Maryrose 

Hi Anita, 

Your right we all have days where we think 'enough' and everything feels to hard the thought of everything to still come is overwhelming. The never ending tiredness wears resilience down and eventually you have to let it out somehow, your human it's ok to feel down when going thru tough times.

I had some of those 'off' days last week, I spent one of those day in tears utterly miserable, I decided it was ok to have my off day, and just let the tears come, my husband commented to me 'you've been so upbeat and positive thru all of this, what's going on?'  My reply was I'm having an off day, I can if I want damn it! ' we ended up talking nonsical nonsense and I found myself laughing then realising even when everything feels like crap I can still find laughter, which helped.

today as I lay on the table for my zapping (radiotherapy) tears welled again and even tho I feel like saying enough I'm stopping treatment, I'm sick of having this intrusion in my life, it is for my family that I continue, while it should be for me, myself and I that I continue, when feeling down focusing on my children's need to have their mother, my husbands need to have his wife around as long as possible, when I would give up if it were just me is a powerful strategy to push thru the miserys that will pass in time.

I love your half a smile, it tells me there's a full smile lurking biding it's time waiting for the 'down' to pass, and it will pass you will get thru, even if it's a rough ride xxxx

Wow you don't have a license, you go girl you can do anything, I went on a holiday at the end of treatment, one of the best things I didxx

Hi Rowdy,

I am really happy to hear from you and you are 100% right I should be thankful as I am very lucky, I have a husband who loves me and a daughter that adores me, her smile makes me keep going, I'm working on my new normal I plan to get my learners license at the age of 46 as soon as chemo has finished and a holiday is definatly on the cards next year I have earnt it we all have, having bc hasn't destroyed my life I have so much to live for this feeling will pass thanks Rowdy sending a big smile and a cuddle your way.

Anitaxx

Hi Christine,

I think and see my daughter and she's my light and I'm looking forward to Christmas but when chemo rolls around every monday I think do I have to go but I know I do after a while I get down sometimes but not for long the posts of support I recieve on here lift my spirits so thankyou, you have made me feel a litle bit better sending a smile and a cuddle.

Anitaxx

Hi Anita chemo is a tough trip give yourself a break. It is over 12 months since I finished my chemo and I still have bad days. I also did 12 months of herceptin which I finished this year. I have been on Tanoxifen and have just visited my oncologist and switched to Arimidex. I have decided that BC just keeps giving. 

Every day I wake up and am very grateful that I;m here things could be a lot worse. I keep on being told not to be so hard on myself that my body has had a lot done to it and it is true. So chin up and look at your daughter and husband and you will soon smile and feel better, remember one day at a time. Sending you a big hug and a laugh xx

Sending a full smile back to you. Don't be hard on yourself!

Take time to rest and heal and in time you'll be able to reflect

We all get it. You need emotional strength as well as physical strength to navigate this BC journey

Have a great Christmas and a healthy 2016.

Take care from Christine xxx