Hi Anita
Sorry to hear you're feeling down. It's not unusual to be feeling how you are when you hit the middle of chemo. Your body and mind is screaming for you to stop but you know you need to keep pushing forward. Add to that a spouse who doesn't get it (my family didn't get it either) and it makes for a dreadful time. I remember crying to my onc nurse and saying I couldn't do it anymore. She gave me excellent advice. Stuff everyone else. At this stage you need to put yourself first. Everyone else can fend for themselves. Rest when you need to, try to get a little gentle exercise in (even if it is just a walk around the block) and do what ever it is you need to to get through. Call in favours and if your family won't step up, time to ask friends for help. If you have days where you feel ok within the cycle, plan something nice. Even if it is just going to a coffee shop with a friend. This is the time that it needs to be all about you! Radio is a lot easier than chemo. You will get through this! Tell you onc staff how you are feeling. It's important that they know. Hang in there and take care. Karen xox