Feeling a little down

Hi Anita, 

Your right we all have days where we think 'enough' and everything feels to hard the thought of everything to still come is overwhelming. The never ending tiredness wears resilience down and eventually you have to let it out somehow, your human it's ok to feel down when going thru tough times.

I had some of those 'off' days last week, I spent one of those day in tears utterly miserable, I decided it was ok to have my off day, and just let the tears come, my husband commented to me 'you've been so upbeat and positive thru all of this, what's going on?'  My reply was I'm having an off day, I can if I want damn it! ' we ended up talking nonsical nonsense and I found myself laughing then realising even when everything feels like crap I can still find laughter, which helped.

today as I lay on the table for my zapping (radiotherapy) tears welled again and even tho I feel like saying enough I'm stopping treatment, I'm sick of having this intrusion in my life, it is for my family that I continue, while it should be for me, myself and I that I continue, when feeling down focusing on my children's need to have their mother, my husbands need to have his wife around as long as possible, when I would give up if it were just me is a powerful strategy to push thru the miserys that will pass in time.

I love your half a smile, it tells me there's a full smile lurking biding it's time waiting for the 'down' to pass, and it will pass you will get thru, even if it's a rough ride xxxx