Hi, just read your post and want to give you a hug. I know not very helpful at all.
I had a double MX in Jan and just had tissue expanders out and silicone implants in. I have been very lucky through the whole process - if get take out getting breast cancer at all in that thought - so I feel terrible that you have had such a rough time.
I am in Brisbane and have found the breast care nurses great for talking through things. There are also people at the Choices rooms to talk with. I think you should try to access some of these people or type of people where you live - I think most hospitals have a breast care nurse.
You have made the biggest step in feeling better by posting, keep going in your search until you find what you need. Action in a positive direction, no matter how small or how difficult is always better than doing nothing.