I was diagnosed to have early stage cancer Mid 14 August 2014. Then I had 2 surgeries so far, and I'm seeing the specialist next monday for post sugery follow-up. So I don't know my following treatments yet. After my first surgery, I was actually happy as the cancer hasn't travel to my lymph nodes and little knowledge with breast cancer. I bomb fed my brain with breast cancer knoweledge in the last 2 days, and cried over every minute. I felt reluctant to die and missed my parents. My husband and brother didn't understand why I cried over and over again, as they thought it's still early stage cancer and treatable. But as far as I know, it's still can be fatal. I felt sad, depresed, and hopeless. ( I believe many of you have gone through this.) I got married last year, and was thinking about having kinds next year. my husband and I went to GP to have a body checkup. I also requested to have an breast ultrasound. Then the result came back with a shock, followed up with lightening-fast surgeries. Currently I'm going on a roller coaster with emotions. I don't know how long I will live and couldn not stop tears once thinking about how devastated it will be to my parents if I die. I'm so sad and scared ath the moment

I am so sorry to hear that you are going going through such an overwhelming time. You mentioned that you have an appointment with the surgeon on Monday...that is when you will get a more conclusive pathology report. Knowing what you are dealing with and the treatment you will have will hopefully have a settling effect. I know it is hard ..I felt the same. But remember that everyone is unique...your pathology, grade, stage of lesion in your breast is UNIQUE to you. There are so many wonderful outcomes and cure for breast cancer. Good luck on Monday. Let us know how it went. Lots of hugs.xx

What you are feeling is normal,when you first find out that you have breast cancer.But what you need to know,is that you are going to be OKAY!!!! You are not going to die,and I am pretty certain that you are going to have your treatment,then go on to live a long ,healthy life.Breast cancer these days is so treatable,especially when it hasn't spread to the lymph nodes,and you have done a good thing by posting on this blog.Other ladies will reply to you over the next couple of days,and give you hope,just as I am trying to do.I was diagnosed with breast cancer one year ago.I feel really well now,as most ladies on here do.Stay on this blog,as you will get so much help and support here. Whenever you feel scared just come on here,and someone will support you.I think that you will find,that once you have seen the surgeon for post surgery followup, you will start to feel more in control. Try not to worry so much and stay in touch.CheersxoxRobyn

Hi Sydney-31 and others reading this Like you I was diagnosed (through Breastscreen) in August 2014 and went in for a mastectomy. I have had three surgeries and am waiting for my pathology report this Tuesday. I am fortunate that my husband has attended appointments with me so he heard the Breast Care Nurse say it is normal to have a spack attack - and she worries if people don't cry over the diagnosis and during treatment. When in the Imaging Dept waiting for the radioactive dye to work the technician said "you are lucky to get breast cancer as it is the treatable one". Prior to my hospitalisation I made myself an affirmation. I tried to be 'in the future' and definite. It is "I am strong. I am positive. I am proud". This has helped me to get through - I typed it up on pretty paper and it was hanging in my hospital room (now in the loungeroom). I find when my eyes well up I recite the affirmation and it passes. My advice is to give yourself a rest from reading about it all. You, like me and all the others, get 'information overload' at the beginning. Take time out for YOU, relax, treat yourself and make yourself an affirmation to help lessen the emotional turmoil. Hope this helps Summer

Good luck Monday take it 1 day at a time

Sorry to hear you are overwhelmed at the moment, it's a hard thing to deal with. Definitely a roller coaster of emotions. Summer is right when she says breast cancer is one of the most treatable. That may not seem such a comfort but they are doing some wonderful things treating breast cancer these days. I also did a lot of reading and research, it can get you down. I am 5 months post treatment and feeling pretty darn good, I now have what I refer to as my 'cancer box'. I got sick of leaving cancer booklets all over the house, it was a constant reminder I didn't need. My best advice to you is to take 'one day at a time', it can be daunting looking too far down the track. I wish you all the very best for your results and whatever treatment you may need. Keep your chin up, sending big cyber hugso you, Hazel xx

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Rosanna
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11 years ago
Thanks Sydney........
Sydney-31
Member
11 years ago
thanks, take care.
Sydney-31
Member
11 years ago
lots of hugs too!! thanks for your support, you take care too. I've updated all you lovely people in a new comment.
Sydney-31
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11 years ago
poor you, you did all the teatment without company!! lots of hugs!!! I wish I could be there and support!
Sydney-31
Member
11 years ago
Hi Donna

Yes, when I looked at the complete picture, I felt overwhelmed..... Thanks a lot for your support, take care too.
Sydney-31
Member
11 years ago
Hi Hazel

I think I will folow you and do the same thing. Put all the cancer books away. it's too depressing to see them everywhere.

I'm trying to be chin-up.. Hugs... Thanks you
Sydney-31
Member
11 years ago
totally agree with you, I felt more settled now ( but not sure whether I will cry again tomorrow). Hugs. XOXO

We all going to live long and health!!!
Sydney-31
Member
11 years ago
Thank you Summer. Good luck tomorrow!! Stay Positive! Let us know how it went tomorrow.
Sydney-31
Member
11 years ago
Thank you all very much for your support, indeed!!! you are all so lovely,beautiful persons.

At this moment, I felt ok and not thinking about cancer much, although I cried a few times today as well. I actually felt quite tired from crying....

Update from my result: I saw my specialist this afternoon, and the pathology report shows no further surgery required. I'm seeing an oncologist this thurday afternoon to work out my following treatments.

My breast cancer

16mm, Grade 3,ER+ , others are all negative. but KPI 40%

I think Robyn is right. I may feel more settled after I know my treatments. the status of waiting is horrible....

I will try to take the positive attitude from any of you !!!

BIG HUG. XOXO

THANK YOU!
Rosanna
Member
11 years ago
Hi Sydney, oh dear dear....you need a cry and a real real good cry, however you are not alone. You are still lovable and sweet. We are all here.

You had a lovely hubby that was wonderful, tell you even just 1 day is whole life..... instead sitting there and upset, you need to live more positive, and holding his hand. We all can't tell what will happen tomorrow. Just because of that, we shouldn't waste today.

I know how you feel, and I feel how you feel. Ever since I was diagonised, surgery(s), check up, chemo treatment, Radio treatment (just finished 3SEP), are alllllll by myself only.

So go and love your husband and your brother, love for those who loves you, don't waste today.

Frankly, you did the best part already - surgery. After care like chemo/radio/hormone treatment are reinforcement progress. The worst stuff already been taken away. As another lady said in another blog, don't let the cancer have you. don't let them had a chance. You are the boss of your body, you are in charge.

Loving you and walk with you.

Xoxo Rosanna

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