Hey @Brenda5, I reckon your psychiatrist is excellent for ensuring that you're not going to get any little side effects as a result of your medication. I also reckon that you have had an absolutely huge time of it - what with varying treatment regimes, finding long lost family members, seeking assistance for long lost family members, you haven't really had that much of a chance to slow down and smell the roses and with that also let those walls down that we build up to see us through treatment etc. So I don't think it's a bad thing to have a little cry every now and then, stress relief is brilliant. You're doing everything right including as fairydust said your jigsaw puzzles, and looking after your fish. Big hug. Xx Cath