Denial, disbelief or acceptance of no concerns??
I was diagnosed Feb 24th and had surgery April 1st and am starting radiation Monday 29/5 for 6 weeks, but I keep "forgetting" I have breast cancer??? Because I feel SO well its hard to remember I had surgery for breast cancer and I'm just in the holding bay for treatment. So much so Id rang to book a table at a ball recently held in June and when the people started getting back to me they all asked "Are you sure you are going to be well enough - are you sure you'll WANT to go etc". Then when I thought about it I guess it would be annoying for our friends to go along to a function Id organised and then find I didn't go. I MAY not be feeling like it.
Is it just me or do others forget and arrange stuff in this stage of PRE-treatment then have to back peddle?
My radiation was scheduled to start at the end of May so I went on a 3 night Comedy cruise with 3 girlfriends 20/5-23/5 and even they were worried how Id manage???? I was fine - in fact remarkably well and really loved the fun and laughter.
Ive not been doing my meditations and relaxations as I am feeling very happy and well.
Am I living in denial or have I blocked the reality from my mind?
I am seriously questioning my mind and my thoughts as I don't know what I should be thinking and feeling. Should I be sad and scared? Im not sure if I sit with myself and go into the fear and sadness that I won't dissolve into a flood of tears and feel miserable. But is that good for me? Isn't it better to be "up" and feeling good and happy and well?
This is unusual I suppose but I wonder if other people have experienced this at this stage of the "journey"?
Is it just me or do others forget and arrange stuff in this stage of PRE-treatment then have to back peddle?
My radiation was scheduled to start at the end of May so I went on a 3 night Comedy cruise with 3 girlfriends 20/5-23/5 and even they were worried how Id manage???? I was fine - in fact remarkably well and really loved the fun and laughter.
Ive not been doing my meditations and relaxations as I am feeling very happy and well.
Am I living in denial or have I blocked the reality from my mind?
I am seriously questioning my mind and my thoughts as I don't know what I should be thinking and feeling. Should I be sad and scared? Im not sure if I sit with myself and go into the fear and sadness that I won't dissolve into a flood of tears and feel miserable. But is that good for me? Isn't it better to be "up" and feeling good and happy and well?
This is unusual I suppose but I wonder if other people have experienced this at this stage of the "journey"?
