Dealing with the unexpected
Well sometimes things don't go as expected. What should be routine has a few extra twists and unknowns to deal with.
First my bone density was not as good as I would have liked when I had my test last week. So, I get my head around that and decide on a plan to deal with it. I will revisit an exercise physiotherapist and hopefully find out some more targeted exercise to address the lumbar region which is deteriorating a bit more than the rest of me. I take heart that the rest of me is holding its own against the double onslaught of having ovaries removed plus 9 months of Femara. So I feel ok with the idea that more exercise of the right type can probably counteract this issue.
So today I go for my 'routine' mammogram/ultrasound check before I see my breast surgeon next week. First the mammogram of my remaining right breast. The doctor wants some extra images of what 'might be' a lymph node deep in my breast. After much rearranging we manage to get what he wants to see. Then off to have the ultrasound. All good with the chest wall on the left but again an issue with finding the area that the doctor wants to see on the right. After changing the transponder the technician is confident that she has found the spot and it's good news. She can definitely see fluid which indicates a cyst not anything to worry about. Phew!
Then a couple of hours later I get a phone call from the radiologists. The doctor would like to do another ultrasound himself. So now I have to wait until Thursday to have another ultrasound with the doctor. Surprisingly I am feeling very calm. I am reassured that they are being so thorough, I am reassured that the ultrasound lady today was so sure that she could see fluid, not anything suspicious. At the end of the day it is no use worrying. What will be will be.
I see my breast surgeon next Wednesday, a lady who I have complete faith in. If there is anything there I know she will do a biopsy on the spot and I will not have to wonder for long. Right now I am counting my blessings that I have a great medical team that will deal with anything that needs dealing with IF that happens.
My reaction at the moment is to just concentrate on all the good things I have around me and to not let my mind wonder too far from the moments I have in front of me right now. Chicken curry is simmering for dinner. It smells good and is full of good things for me. Tomorrow I have time to go for an extra long walk, the weather is supposed to be fine, it's going to be good. One step at a time. Don't let worry about something that might not even be anything to worry about spoil any of my time between now and then.
