Hi Mich - lovely to hear from you!! I actually cross-posted this from my own blog (where I write about other stuff too - it's at www.paw-paw-salad.com). I guess what I was trying to reflect on here was the pressure I sometimes felt to be a better person after cancer, with my priorities clear, no longer 'sweating small stuff' etc etc. I wish that cancer could have provided some kind of magical, perfect perspective on my life and my priorities - it seems to for some people, but I guess my experience didn't match the myth!! You're absolutely right in guessing that I found the first year post-treatment a very difficult and confusing time. You're also right in guessing that I've turned a bit of a corner recently - touch wood. I'm trying to be more forgiving of myself (and my still-mixed-up priorities), and to tell myself that it's OK to sort out what I want in this next phase one small step at a time, rather than expecting that cancer will provide me with perfect insight into how I should live my life. Does that make sense??
Hope things are good with you!
Cheers
Liz
