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ScorpionQueen
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9 years ago

Angry, Upset, Devastated

Day 17 - after round three.

Sorry for the short post yesterday, but I'm ANGRY!

ANGRY at you, you stinking rotten bitch! Angry that you have taken so many, angry that you are attempting, sadly a lot of times succeeding, to destroy lives!

I am not only angry for me, but I am angry for EVERYONE! What gives you the right to take lives too soon? What gives you the right to take the elderly, when they get through their entire life without so much as a scratch? and what gives you the right to take the young, the ones whose lives haven't even begun?

I am angry that you make us fearful, fearful of whats to come, fearful of your return.....Those who are effected live their lives day to day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Their families and friends watch helplessly. You make us see what we don't want to, feel what we don't want to....force inconceivable decisions on us......whether we like it or not you control our everyday......but I am determined you won't control our FUTURE, MY future!

You see we are getting closer, closer to finding a way to shove you back into the hole you came out of and seal it shut FOREVER!

We are fighting for those who are battling now and for those who have lost....WE WILL NEVER GIVE UP! We are stronger than you and WE WILL WIN!

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    ScorpionQueen
    Member
    9 years ago

    Sadness is all part of this roller coaster...sometimes you don;t know why, you just feel sad....as long as it doesn't get too deep.

    The hardest thing to do through this is to be happy all the time...we are entitled to have our bad days...i was so angry that day! I cried and punched the pillow on my bed..I felt like a child, but I had to get it out!

    I've watched and am currently watching too many people lose the battle.....it just sucks

    Hope you are feeling better and have beautiful days <3

     

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    ScorpionQueen
    Member
    9 years ago

    Sorry for your loss Maryrose....not fair..

    I have lost 3 this week, the latest being Sunday night..they were a hot rodding friend, a family members uncle and a friends grandma...But the one that topped it off and made me so angry is a very close family friend who was diagnosed at the same time as me with pancreatic cancer that has spread to her liver....she's 51! She losing her battle, very quickly. I lost my Mother in law to pancreatic cancer 4 years ago..She's now hospitalised. We have been supporting each other through our similar, but very different experiences. She has had two strokes now and She doesn't want any visitors, I am so sad that I can't go to see her, I just want to sit and hold her hand....but I fully respect her wishes...

    I hate that this disease strikes so many, often without warning..

    Sending you love and light to find the peace your loved ones now have <3 Xx

     

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    primek
    Member
    9 years ago

    Yep ...sums it up for me too. Except I just feel sad all the time...just another thing to be angry about...it's  trying to suck the joy out of life too. Hope things improve. Kath x

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    maryroset1
    Member
    9 years ago

    Thanks for your post...you put into words what i have been feeling lately. I recently lost a friend with a young child and have gone through all those emotions.  

    Take care of yourself ??

    Maryrose