a journey opening new doors

Thankyou Kathy i really felt you knew what i had been through and i enjoyed reading your reply.  It does put a hault on your life and you really hav to re evaluate what you want to do and how you really want to live your life happily.  I find that im an easy going person and i dont like to waste any energy on frivolus things or bickering for unecessary arguments and at times i wish i was on my own just to hav peace and quiet and to really be able to do as i please its not easy living with someone who doesnt understand you or appreciate simple things that you appreciate and i realised this after having cancer and also when i was in the bahamas i was on my own didnt hav to think or do anything for anyone but myself and it felt so good i didnt miss anyone apart from my children.  So sometimes it leads you to open other doors but financially i cant at the moment and am waiting till i get well enough to continue working then saving in case i need to make my dreams a reality.  So many people say to live now dont wait too long for the future so im hoping i will hav that opportunity whatever the universe throws at me i will deal with it.  ive been longing to hav some animals around me to love and nuture so hoping this will be the next step i take as i hav to please myself now not others.  i find after having cancer and being through what i hav it makes you stronger im so grateful to be able to open up and chat and i thankyou for your time and hope things are going well for you also kathy.  i teach water exercise classes they are great for mobility and well being.  i just started to get back in to taking aqua classes and i  feel so good to be part of society now and not the hospital.  I will start tamoxifin soon and hope it doesnt make me put weight on as i hav hypothroidism as well which slows down your metablism so hav 2 things to worry about.  thanks once again i appreciated and valued your thoughts and hope we all hav a better outcome love and light to you xx