12mths On

Saturday 10th March , marks my 12mths since my diagnosis. It has been a real rollercoaster ride emotionally  and it has truley been a journey.

I look back and remember if it was yesterday the day I was told I had breast cancer.The fear that went through my body , the thought of not being around for my children and grandchildren.  I was such a mess , the first two weeks living on sleeping pills and medication . I was so terrified of what was ahead of me. I could not accept this was happening to me. How was I going to cope . I was usually a strong person , but just fell to pieces. How lucky I was to find this sight,it was through all you beautiful ladies that helped me get through each day., Thank you does not seem enough.

I have come out at the end of the 12mths a much stronger person than I could ever imagine. Yes the fear is still around, but not as much, only comes out occasionally. I have soon learnt who I could depend on and the people who I thought would be there for more were not, but then people I never even thought would be have amazed me with there support. I have learnt family does not always mean blood related.

In the past 12mths I have had a mastectomy , lymph nodes removed, hysterectomy, now having another mastectomy next week as a precaution and the start of reconstruction and two more operations to be done before it is finished. Start of menopause due to medication, side affects from my tablets , my hair is so thin from falling out from my medication. I have learnt to speak up and ask questions Drs and if not happy get a second opinion. I am now in control  and it is a good feeling.

I just got my results back everything looking good , all clear. No signs of any cancer.

Now  I stop to smell the roses, something I never did before , always doing for others and not looking after myself. My husband  has been my rock  always by my side .  Big hugs to you all.