Thnx all for the support and suggestions offered .
Thanx @Cath62. Today was my worst day full of tears.. I pulled myself together and rang my breast cancer nurse who was amazing and she went through everything I had fears or questions about and let my cry some more.
I have two daughters who will support me but the impact on them concerns me too. They are 27 and 20. I have a great network of friends too. Thank you for your msg, it’s amazing how just hearing from someone else who has some understanding from their own experience can help calm some of the anxiety.