Hi @Crusty it's an awful time waiting for that first appointment. First of all, know that the odds are in your favour. Many, many of us here are survivors - cancer free! Once you see your specialist you can begin a treatment plan, which will help you feel more in control of things. You won't know what treatments will be recommended for you until then, so don't speculate or jump too far ahead on that one. In the mean time keep busy, by all means, but know that it's okay to be scared and cry too. Please pop on here and ask any questions you have. There's a wealth of knowledge and experience, kindness and understanding. Let us know how you go xxxoo