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ScorpionQueen
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10 years ago

Two more sleeps

Two more sleeps until my surgery, Well I haven't really slept, just hourly doses between dreaming and waking up wondering around the house at all hours. I've tried my hardest to push it to the back of my mind, but when you sleep the sub conscious comes alive....Weird ass dreams, that I tend to take real notice of, as I am sensitive.....YES I actually dreamed that I gathered my family over to my house for a BBQ and I stood up at dessert and told them I had breast cancer...that was a month BEFORE I was diagnosed. I also practice Angel readings and meditate.

I have been physically ill since diagnosis, can't eat much and when I do I feel nauseated. I guess I will feel this way until I have full prognosis on 22/1/15. I still don't even have full biopsy results yet (hormone receptors etc).

The thoughts race through my mind at a hundred miles per hour. A constant swirl of what ifs, maybes and hopefulys.....it;s actually been hard to meditate because of them.

So hurry up Wednesday so I can concentrate on the next chapter of this story!

P.S- Thanks to all who have written support to me and shared part of their story! Sending love and light for speedy healing and wellbeing <3

Xx - Tracy

 

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  • June1952's avatar
    June1952
    Member
    10 years ago

    Hello Tracy

    Isn't the mind a powerful thing ?  The things it dreams up for us in the night can be overwhelming at times.

    Before my surgery I made my Affirmation:  "I am strong.  I am positive.  I am proud".  I printed it out on pretty paper and stuck it up on the wall opposite my hospital bed.  It helped me get through.  You are welcome to use that, too.

    Try to take each day as it comes but always ask questions, don't let anyone get out of your room leaving you with questions on which to dwell.

    Good luck for your surgery.  You will be in my thoughts.

    Hugs  Summer  :-)

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    adean
    Member
    10 years ago

    Hope everything goes well for you, I had a mantra before surgery which I had found in a meditation book I kept saying this while laying on the trolley and I'm sure they thought id gone mad I lost 5 kg before going in unentetionaly,so it shows you the internal stress. When you have your post results at least you will know what your plan will be. All the best adean. Xx