Trying to absorb the shock and fear

I am SO sorry to see you here @Michellecooper .....  and it absolutely SUCKS that you've had to cancel your trip to Spain for fun & racing .... my husband was a multi age-group Tri World champion, also struck down with cancer ... but after losing most of his stomach to the cancer - he got back into training & competing just 6 months after his chemo finished & won 5 more World Champ medals over the next 10 years (the only stomach amputee to do so, I believe) ..... so don't write yourself off getting back to full on competition again xx. (A buddy has just taken out Silver in Finland in late August in the 75-79 age bracket 1/2 Ironman World Champs ... )

I fully understand how it is SO unfair & a total shock, when you are so fit & eating all the right things & doing the right things & otherwise 'healthy' .... this diagnosis mucks with your BRAIN even more than it mucks with your body :(  And yep - it totally turns your life around in an instant.

Feel free to join the TNBC 'private group' - where you can raise ANY question/issue about your diagnosis & treatment in total privacy ..... 
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/group/30-triple-negative-breast-cancer-tnbc

Check out this post too, for a bit more info on the forum & 'other things' you may like to check out (and even have a bit of a laugh, as we ALL need a laugh now & then!)
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/23477/a-big-welcome-to-all-our-new-members#latest

take care & all the best