Try not to get too ahead of yourself, @FeR .... My Dr suggested trying Mindfulness .... staying 'in the present' as you have some control over that - whereas imagining all sorts of stuff in the future, can just scare the crap out of you, & you have no control over that - other than it upsetting you 'now'! xx Also, consider ringing our Help Line too - Mon-Fri 9-5 on 1800 500 258 (up in the blue banner at the top of the page.) Sometimes it is just nice to be able to talk physically with someone xx
Take care & all the best xx