Thanks for your reply Tri, this has been so helpful.
I had a 20mm lump and one lymph node with cancer cells. I started on 4 cycles of chemo AC (doxorubicin & cyclophosphamide) and got through this ok of course my hair fell out had bad constipation and of course loss my taste. I was lucky to avoid being sick. Then I started Paclitaxel & Trastuzumab (13 cycles), I had severe allergic reaction to the paclitaxel after the second treatment plus another on the third so it was changed to nab-paclitaxel (4cycles) which I got through.
I too had the tiredness to the extent of sheer exhaustion and lack of motivation, plus the emotions are still hard to control. I am a needle phobic which really doesn't help any.
Being at home has allowed me to avoid people as always scared of catching colds, covid etc. I always check with anyone before catching up to see if they are well or not. I feel people have avoided me since my diagnoses, I just think they do not know what to say to you and I can understand this, I also wasn't in a great place in the beginning found it hard to communicate, not so bad now. I am a bit of a home bod like my own company but you do need to be able to converse with others who are going through what you are. I started to write down my feelings and I feel this has helped me.
I was an emotional wreck by the time surgery came around but felt good once over only the find out I am going back down that path next week. I get a two week break then on to new treatment trastuzumab emtansine which is 14 cycles. I am not sure when radiation treatment starts, I also have to go on tablets Anastrozole at some stage. I am sure there will be new side effects to deal with hopefully I'll keep my hair as it is now growing back, I wear hats so it is not a big deal really but it would be nice.
As I had said I had retired from work, my job was extremely stressful especially as we had just come out of 3 years of covid, I managed an accommodation facility where self isolating was not possible, took me 6 months to get rid of the stress then breast cancer happened changed everything, and it has been quite taxing on myself and my husband, we have each other and together we will come out of this. I just want to get back to some kind of normal, just not having to worry about this stuff all the time.
So thank you for touching base with me, I really needed this, I am glad you have reached where you are today and I wish you all the best moving forward, that is all we can do move forward. You have a wonderful day now.