Tomorrow is day

Bowie said:

I'm am so scared beyond belief. I'm having my Double Masc tomorrow and lymph nodes as well ..l feel like lm going to go insane and run from the hospital ..l have cried for 2 days of and on ..spoke to BC nurse and friends ..l feel like l will end up in a phys ward or something ...l really dont no how you have all come through this ...please please some hopeful words ...My daughter said that your brain will accept it after it is done ..it the lead up to it and the anxiety ...going flat as can't have reco ..Omg ..will l be ok 

Hi hun, I hope you are feeling better and stronger now. I know it's hard not to cry but being calm is important. I know there are a lot of apprehension and anxiety but you will be well taken care of by your medical team. When I lost my breast I did not cry, I just wanted to remove that heinous lump straightaway. I am not saying I am stronger than you, I am not. Some days I can be so plagued by anxiety and all the what ifs. For me I find my source of strength in God whom I choose to trust, because I am so weak and unreliable. Take one step at a time, find something to keep you busy. I listen to music and sermons on you tube. Or even funny videso on you tube to make me laugh out loud. Surround yourself with loved ones who support you, it's good to chat about your feelings with someone reliable. I find that helps me a lot. xxx