Told today mastectomy of my right breast

I think for many of us it's before hand is worse  i found though after treatment for me  the realisation and grief set in. But I've picked myself up and just keep working on it.

@Michelle49 big hug. Xx

Right then , I had my appointment with my doctor to get the final results, turns out that I'm stage 2 , only just, 25mm lump from my nipple downwards and minute trace in the first node that didn't show up in any tests before the operation and barely showed up in the biopsy from the operation. So Dr Trinh has organised for me to have chemo, under Dr Fox, at daffodil cottage ,Bathurst, she thinks about 3 weeks and 5 weeks of radiation , under Dr Tiver, at cancer care, Nepean hospital . 
Its strange but I'm not upset after losing my right breast, I'm relieved that I'm only stage 2 and that treatments are moving forward fast. 
I had a biopsy on my left breast several years ago when the doctors found floating particles in a cyst and had to make a decision to remove that breast if it came back malignant so I think that I was some what prepared this time. The nurse removed the bindings before I left the hospital and was amazed how I handled it when I looked in the mirror, I didn't cry lol and only said " shit I am bruised " , mainly from the haematoma , so here I am feeling good, happy and with my wonderful hubby waiting on me hand and foot, which gets annoying at times as I am capable lol, and only cried a little when visiting some friend and he remarked how proud he was of me in the strength I have shown and that he was amazed at my outlook on the whole thing as he doesn't think he could be as together as I am being. 
Thank you all for listening to me and you kind words, I think that they have helped to get me to this place in time xxxx

@Michelle49, how brilliant. Excellent that you're home with your lovely hubby and what a beautiful sentiment. Xx Cath

Great surgeon. Hubby is a keeper. Glad you are home. X

@Michelle49 what a journey. Its great to hear of a beautiful supportive man. Some ladies are not as lucky and partners may leave or behave badly. I was also touched by the compassion my breast surgeon displayed to me. Great your home and ready for the next stage. One day dont ask me when you will wake up and treatment will be all over. Maybe an eternity ring?

Great news @Michelle49 Rest up now.  Great Dr, and great hubby too.
Paula xx

Great news @Michelle49 Rest up now.  Great Dr, and great hubby too.
Paula xx

@Michelle49 Oh that's wonderful to hear you are home now and on the road to recovery. Also that you have such great support, what a love your Husband is, very thoughtful! Rest up and nurture you x Melinda 

Great that you're home @Michelle49 - now onto your recovery! What a lovely thought from your husband...and what a wonderful doctor too. My GP gave me her mobile number 12 months ago...a gesture of trust and respect. Wishing you a steady recovery. Thinking of you Nikki xxx