Welcome to this forum full of support , understanding and knowledge.
Sorry to see you here but Welcome.
What you’re feeling is so normal, the first few weeks I just cried and cried, couldn’t stop. As time goes on it will become less and less, especially once you have a plan in place.
I was the same as Arpie, couldn’t speak to anyone, basically told people via messenger about my diagnosis as the tears could flow whilst I was writing, I didn’t want to deal with their emotions at that time aswell.
Hang in there , you can do this! We are all here for you
Sending cyber hugs ❤️