LisaO, sorry you have found yourself in this club that we all wish we weren't apart of. Your kids absolutely do need you. Im 43 and lost my mum to cancer two years ago this july. I took care of her at home and watched her exit this life. Absolutely broke my heart, she was my best friend. Now at a time i need her most she is not here. I did not want chemo either, my thoughts were I'm not married, have no kids, no family but my brother, so what's keeping me here. My mum fought hard in a battle she could never win and it's for her I'm doing this. Yes it's all scary but I believe you can do it.
Hugs Lisa x