Struggling with Negative Emotions

Hello @jconnolly4285 just want to salute your courage in sharing your experience and thoughts. Although I haven’t felt let down in the way you have described, I remember feeling challenged by negative emotions that I felt when one or two people (who were otherwise very dear to me) behaved in ways that I felt fell short. I recognised that I was also at peak fatigue phase when that happened. It was helpful listening to Charlotte Trottman’s podcast. These two were helpful to me and may be helpful in your context. 
Season 1 Episode 3 “Showing up and the letting down”
https://www.bcna.org.au/resource-hub/podcasts/what-you-dont-know-until-you-do/what-you-dont-know-until-you-do/season-1-episode-3-the-showing-up-and-the-letting-down-surprises-and-disappointments-in-relationships/