Hi Gerryb. I understand how you feel. I had a routine mammogram, called to doctor next morning, at surgeons off that afternoon. Biopsies a few days later and bi lateral mastectomy the following week. It's been 4 months now and I've since had 6 operations due to complications and a full hysterectomy. I have stayed super positive most of the time but every now and then I'd fall apart. Now that the implants are in and I'm back to a normal routine it's all starting to hit home and the dark clouds are over me but I've a strong network and I keep plodding along as you will do too. I wish you all the best. A positive attitude will really help you. Hope you get your post op bra. I found it invaluable.