@melony Not surprised to see a post at 5am - you'll often find someone up and on this site during the night. Getting that diagnosis is so hard and then the constant waiting to find out exactly what has hit you and what options you have to deal with it. And there are people on this forum who are at many places on the BC spectrum but we all know what it's like to suddenly have your life turned upside down by this. I felt completely well when I went along to my Breastscreen mammogram. Then life gave me an almighty kick and I've been travelling along this rollercoaster since December and a way to go yet. All I can say is to try to take one day at a time. This forum is wonderful for support, advice, information and a few laughs and the knowledge that people understand what you're going through.