Hi @MaryB83 - wishing you all the best with your scans today. So much great advice here already for you - this is the most amazing community. I had a double mastectomy just over 4 weeks ago and have had expanders put in with a view to reconstruction down the track. There are so many options for reconstruction these days with incredible results and foobs that look so very much like the real thing.
Absolutely the most turbulent time is when you're working out your plan of action, and that's largely because you have no control. As soon as you're on track and know what you're going to have to do, it's much easier. You're back in control, you can get as much or as little information as you like, and make decisions.
I remember my first full body scan like it was yesterday. 'Scanxiety' is the absolute pits. I sat in the waiting room and took two tamazepam to calm myself down - I could feel my heart pumping somewhere around my throat and thought it was literally going to burst out of my body! But one of the best pieces of information that was given to me is 'don't write the chapter until it's happened'. It's so, so hard to do but one baby step at a time and you'll get through this.
Please keep in touch and let us know how you're doing. xxxxx