@Tam007 Valium is a S4 drug...just means it is locked up in a cupboard. Really...if your Dr really doesn't have much compassion I would consider seeing a different Dr...this is a long journey you are embarking and you need somebody who will support you. I've heard excellent reports about the cancer council helpline. What you are experiencing is normal...most of us were frightened, distressed and anxious. I cried a lot at the beginning. All of us fear the spread. The tests do help as at least you feel you are doing something. Tryvto keep busy if you can. Draw your friends and family in close....you will need them Kath x