scared.

The fear is so overwhelming @mic80.  We get it.  We've been there and come out the other side.  I was diagnosed with Stage 2 lobular carcinoma on 5th December 2017.  Well, I say I was diagnosed with it but at the time, all I knew was that it was lobular and there.  It had spread to 3 nodes but my doctors believe that they have got it all.  I went on to have chemo and rads and am now on Letrozole.  I also have a family history of BC.  As @allyjay says, it is what it is and now you are doing something about it.  Try not to overthink it (hah!) and avoid Dr Google if you can - remember that a lot of what you read there is old.  This is probably about the hardest time emotionally as you've been hit with a sledgehammer of news.  Once you have a plan, while you won't feel overjoyed, you will feel more in control of things.  Take care and remember we're here and we get it.