Hi there @Mic80. I'm so sorry that you've found yourself here in a group nobody wants to join. I'm not in your position now, but was almost three years ago. I was diagnosed with stage 3 grade 3 invasive ductal carcinoma with spread to one node. I remember the horror, fear and disbelief as if it were yesterday. The bowel clenching fear between having my full body scan and bone scan and being at the multidisciplinary team meeting to discuss the results, was just awful. Your feelings are entirely normal, although horrible, and nothing anybody can say will allay those fears until you hear the results and have a plan of action. Others, I'm sure will add their comments, but in the meantime, I'm sending you a big cyber (((hug))). Ally.