Hey Ali, sorry you find yourself here. I've had 2 diagnosis 2011 and recurrence in 2015, neither times I was on the Forum, it was only after I completed my treatment I joined. It really is a great place to get support independent from family and friends...because we GET every little thing you think and feel. Unfortunately as you are Grade 3 it usually is Chemo and also dependent on your pathology whether you are Her2 or not or ER+ or not, lots of factors. It is overwhelming, because we don't imagine it or see it coming, we feel so well and fine to be told this is in a way ridiculous?? having been through twice I never felt unwell at all, so mentally it is tough to get your head around, the only thing that has ever made me not well is treatment LOL. Hugs you will be ok, one thing at a time, keep coming back to the moment at hand and you'll manage each step. Melinda xo