Hi @Gin1966,
Sorry to hear of your diagnosis.
All of us can empathise. The first few weeks are stressful and scary. After my first week i felt sick of people poking and prodding and i wanted action but i was terrified too. The wait for surgery seemed endless and this hieghtened the sense of panic.
Not sure if this helps but i felt enormous relief after surgery because we were finally getting on with something concrete. Hopefully you will too. Things will start to get planned out and you will get on with the business of getting well and caring for yourself.
I think most people start to come to terms to a degree as you go along.
The best thing is to try to take one step at a time, worry about what is happening at each stage. Look after yourself, be kind to yourself.
M