That all embracing rush at the beginning when everything passes in a blur, with overload of information. Was 4 months for me before I finally stopped and had a chance to think....what the hell has just happened!? I wrote on here my story and I have had amazing support and advice from the ladies, why ? because we have all had the experiences, confusion and fright you are going through. I hope you find your way, don't forget the write things down, talk with social workers or like minded people who can talk with your family...especially husband and children. My husband was a mess !!! I wish you well, a stress free journey, and send moral support, love and hugs to remind you will find that this is an awesome place to talk and vent. I know I did. <3