Welcome @JoB, I remember those feelings of shock and thinking why me. This website has been so valuable to me with advice, tips and hearing everyone's unique story. I am from NZ, so like you my friends and family are back home but just getting messages and phone calls really does help you get through those tough days. I have triple negative breast cancer and I am half way through chemo now, surgery will be after that for me. I had no family history and still awaiting my gene testing results. Keep positive, focus on what you can achieve at the moment and keep doing the things you love and enjoy. Rachel x