Not sure why Im on this forum

I had the lumpectomy march 20 saw the surgeons side kick, small cancer clear margin I was told.  I have to see the surgeon again evidently , so im worried sick , why ?? was there a clear margin ?? then next week I see the oncologist.  my boob has been sore along the cut line since it was done. my gp says its nerve damage and it takes time.  I worry that waiting this long for treatment the small invasive cancer may have invaded. my depression is through the floor I cant stand it . 3 types of arthritis , cancer , dental issues that I cant get seen to till at least july ( that is when ive been waiting long enough for the govt ). and what happens to daughter if anything happens to me ?/ I tried talking to beyond blue  last night and they cut me off ( I didn't know there was a time limit for such things.  they said I could reconnect if I wanted but I didn't. im at the end of my tether