@sazbe, I feel so sorry you are going through this, apparently alone - as others have said so wisely, first priority is to get your pain under control and next is to get someone as your supporter who you can rely on to be with you through the diagnosis/pathology/treatment phase. If your partner simply cannot do it, then he can't, but you do need another set of ears to help you take it in. If there is anything you need to know beyond what your immediate medical team tells you ask here, and if you need to let your feelings out, here is a good place for that as well. Where are you located? Most hospitals have social workers or counsellors attached, who could be helpful once this first phase is managed. Also your breast care nurse might be good to talk to as soon ss you feel up to it. Thinking of you and hoping you feel a bit better soon. Annski.