@HelenSusie7 It's all frightening at the beginning. I had surgery first. I hadn't shed a tear for the first three months. Then on the morning of my first chemo I was bawling my eyes out at 5 am, in apprehension. After the first chemo it wasn't scary any more; I just concentrated on dealing with the side effects. Try to not focus on what might or might not have a higher chance of recurrence; just put your energy into dealing with the immediate challenges in front of you. Be gentle with yourself. Accept offers of help when you want to. Ask questions when you need to, and keep doing that until you understand. Rock the turbans or wigs and big earrings. <3