hi @Neene sending you lots of virtual hugs - this can be such a tough phase. For me I felt my worries reduced once my additional diagnostic tests had come back and my treatment plan firmed up. After that, for me, it was a case of “let’s get this done”
If you can, it might help to keep doing the things you love over the days ahead (film, exercise, or family maybe?) or your routine work (and to the extent you can, keep the diary open for attending any medical tests) because it might be a way of distracting yourself for a few hours.
Sending you best wishes 🌸🌷