@SamJgS unfortunately everyone around you expects the minute you finish that you are back to 'normal' I know it was that way for me I'm 2.5yrs post chemo now and its been a long hard road to recovery,believe me! What you are experiencing is so incredibly normal and dont let anyone tell you it's not or you need to be positive or grateful, it's so WRONG! because unless theyve physically gone through it they cannot understand the complexity of it, physically,mentally and emotionally. It's like grieving you will heal in your OWN TIME! all I can say is put YOU above everyone else and nurture you to the road of recovery, you absolutely will get there. Hugs Melinda xo