It sounds like you have had a very tough time. Leaving your marriage in the midst of bc must take a lot of courage. Hope you're ok. I was hoping my life would go back to what it used to be before bc but seems unlikely, for now anyway. I've reduced my work hours and quite some committees I was involved in. My mum age 82 was diagnosed a week after me and had her mastectomy the same day as my axillary. So while we live separately we try and support each other. Hope you have support and are managing ok