My dear Glynnis a huge welcome to this site. I am sorry you have had to find us but now you have you will quickly become a member of a lovely caring family. The first part of journey is the worst and "this too shall past". You will be so miserable, frightened, sad and worried. This is normal. there are so many treatments out there available to help you fight and you will, we all do. Just because you now have cancer which does change your life it does not mean the end. Cancer changes us and most will agree inside for the better. It gives us time to really sort out what is important and it makes us sit back and smell the roses instead of rushing through life. My the end of to-day you will hear from many others on here all sending positive thoughts and cyber hugs. We are all in this together. I have been fighting for over a year now and have just been recently diagnosed with Stage 4 and matesteses in the head (tumour) and bone (one isolated behind my stermun). But this time last year I was devasted and thought the worst. Now I win each battle. I won't win the war but battles I will do and so can you. Stay on here and let off steam, cry, moan and ask for advise.
Today you are not going to die so chin up and best foot forward.
Cyber hugs love Sarah54