Hi @Hils,
Welcome lovely. I see you're up in the wee hours, as is expected, and tends to become a regular occurance. The brain certainly likes to think of all the awful things it can come up with at night. The start is just the pitts. I remember being absoulutely petrified to find out the results of my CT.
Once they have a handle on where it's at and the plan gets put in place you'll feel a little more in control. Ask a zillion questions and remember this is your gig. If you're not happy (stupid word in this situation) say so. You tend to just get swept along a little at the start.
There is no right or wrong way to get through this shit show. Just one hour and one day at a time. Distraction is probably the best thing. Keep busy if you can.
It's not called the roller coaster for no reason. The up and down swing of emotions is completely normal. We all get it lovely and everyone is here for you.
xoxoxoxox
