Hi Nefeesa
Your situation sounds very similar to mine.
I was diagnosed with high grade DCIS so had a mastectomy with a DIEP flap reconstruction 6 weeks ago. I chose to go to a private hosp in Melb & am so glad I did. Sure, I had out of pocket expenses, but I had a positive experience in hosp and have continuity of care with the same plastic surgeon, which to me is important. My "new" breast looks much like my "good" breast, even though it's smaller with no nipple. With a bra on, you can't really tell the difference.
It's the stomach wound and tightness of the tummy that has affected me the most, but I know it will just take awhile to heal.
Your fear of recurrence is normal, we all feel it! You are not alone. Try to focus on the present, something you CAN control. Surrounding yourself with positivity really helps to lessen the anxiety.
All the best on your journey. 💜