I had a fibroadenoma in my left breast and was told over and over that it was fine. Then one year when I was 35, I was told that I had BC. It wasn't the adenoma but very close to it. I was angry, sad, confused etc. It's ok to have those feelings. It's not fair!
I hope you can manage the chemo over Christmas. Never a great time to have any kind of treatment! I found cheese and onion crisps and fruit tingles were my friend during chemo! I couldn't taste anything else!! Not healthy but you can worry about that after you have finished treatment.
Good luck with all of your treatment and give those kiddy winks lots of cuddles!
Louise x