Hi there @CarrieP...welcome to the group nobody wants to join. All the feelings you have at the moment are so very normal. I remember when I was diagnosed, I was in a total panic...why are these people waiting, why am I waiting...while they sit and twiddle their thumbs this sucker is growing. Quick...do something! However breast cancer is not just one disease, there are many different types and many stages and grades. Each responds to different treatments and in different sequences. Until your team of specialists meet together to discuss and plan your treatment, all you can do is wait. Very hard for sure. However, once they have a clear plan, you'll feel as if you've been loaded into a very big slingshot, and launched off at great speed. This appointment, that test, this treatment, that something else. Use this waiting time to get yourself as organised as much as you can. Round up the troops of those willing to help you and your family and circle the wagons. Start freezing meals if you want, although with summer here now, you might be able to eat more uncooked meals such as salads. Remember to breathe and avoid DR Google as much of the information is outdated, or wouldn't apply to you and your cancer. Others will hop on soon and give their advice too, but remember, we are here...we've all been where you are now, and we have your back. Come here for advice, come here for a cry or a rant at the unfairness of it all. We understand. Sending a big (((hug)))...Ally.