Hi mumofsix, I think,as a mother, we feel guilty about everything.But honestly,if you can’t take time off for cancer when can you?It’s not your fault you got bc- bad stuff happens to the nicest of people.You’ve no doubt put yourself last whilst bringing up 6 kids- well now it’s time to put yourself first and get well again.Your family will find a way to make ends meet- perhaps you need to ask others for help? Your new workplace hasn’t been very supportive so perhaps you are better off without them? Another door will open as they say.I was your age when I got breast cancer and my youngest daughter was in her HSC year and I felt guilty too. We are too hard on ourselves. Treat yourself like you would a friend with bc.So sorry to hear about your mum too.What a terrible time you’ve had.I hope life will improve for you now.