Hi Angibelle. Not a great way to celebrate a birthday but next year WILL be a better one! I was diagnosed last November and have been through chemo and radiotherapy. I am still having three weekly infusions of Herceptin and taking Tamoxifin. I'm not going to lie kiddo, it's going to be tough for the next little while, but you WILL get through and be stronger for it. When I was first told I had BC I cried at the drop of a hat for weeks - me who has never been a cryer, but I sure made up for my previous lack of tears. I thought I was going to fill Sydney Harbour! Three days after my first chemo I think I actually howled when a friend made me go for a walk because I was so constipated from chemo I thought I was going to die ( I didn't). Everyone we passed stared at me probably thinking i was deranged! But you know what ? You're allowed to cry or scream or swear so go ahead.
I know how you feel with your mum's reaction, my mum's was the same. She just couldn't deal with it then or during treatment. It doesn't help does it? However this is about you so you have to tell her. I know it affects her and all the people you love. However, right now it's YOU who needs positive support so if others are not on board with that avoid them. Positive people really assist in your recovery. I'm sure you will be surprised and as touched as I was by the kindness and care of others. Sometimes people I didn't expect were the greatest support! This site is a wonderful support also and there is always someone to talk to who understands.
While I wish hadn't off been a BC statistic for 2012, I think it's changed me into a stronger person, even though I STILL have days when I have crying jags. Now I give myself permission and accept that it's ok.
Good luck and if there's anything I can do don't hesitate to get in contact. Everyone's treatment is different but I'd be happy to listen!
Daisy