Hi Keirson
I hope you are feeling a little better & on the mend from febrile neutropenia!
I am 2 years ahead of you & alot of similarities....firstly, so sorry to hear about your precious Dad especially at a really difficult time for you - my gorgeous Mum died 2 days after my diagnosis - 2 days after Mums funeral I had a mastectomy; this part of the "journey" was the hardest for me trying to deal with my own mortality & how to deal with Mums sudden death & the grieving process!
As well, I had 2 children to consider, my wonderful husband & a business to run! Like you I had a few stays in hospital due to infection & neutropenia.
Just take it one day at a time & know that before you know it, you will be on the other side of this crappy scenario! You will realise how strong you are & come out of the other end in awe of your body & how it can cope! Your children also will see how you are able to cope & will inadvertantly teach them some fabulous skills! Things do get better....your hair does grow back (this was another big problem for me as I have always been a hair person!) - and know that the experts will give you the right information regarding your treatment etc.
You are certainly not alone in this....this forum is just the best for finding information & meeting other gals in the same boat as you! As scary as it seems now, things do get easier...just give it time.....
Sending big cyber hug your way.....Jenny ??
(Check out my previous posts for more info if you like....x)