Hi @Sister
Welcome to this exclusive club of wonderful ladies who will be here to support you through whatever is to come.
Give yourself a break and let it out as you need to - we all understand and help where we can. We have all travelled a different road but we are still here for you.
Please try not to concentrate too much on the loss of your sister at the moment as the diagnosis and treatments have come a long way since then. Listen to your medical team as they know your specific issue and the best way to attack it - and attack it they will. After all, they want you to live a long life as much as you do.
Keep on checking in as you will find lots of friends to vent with !
Hugs Summer :)