Well done on making a very difficult decision @jomaree. I'm a big believer in listening to one's inner voice, your gut. I remember ignoring it a few times in my early to mid 20s and vowing to never ignore it again. Women are schooled by the patriarchy to downplay our natural instincts, but they are powerful and we are more in touch with them than we often credit.
We are with you through chemo. You've got this! And we've got you. When you know which chemo you'll be having, let us know so those who've had the same can chime in with advice if needed.
Not everyone has a ghastly time on chemotherapy. For the bulk it's a middling affair. By no means pleasant, but doable. Keep your eyes on the prize, a cancer free life. Big hug, K xox