Well it's D day for me, have thought long and hard the last week. Spoken to family and followed your comments. Spoke to my amazing 94yr old Mum. She had a choice in treatment for a heart condition whether to have surgery or not. She listened to her inner voice and is still with us ten yrs on by deciding against surgery. Mum said having a choice and control over your own illness is the best thing and to go with what feels right. I am going to have the chemo as I can't ignore my inner voice and need to be able to live knowing I have done everything I can.